2008.06.20 :: friday :: 9:56pm :: blaze :: stand :: charge

things are in major transition here at the resonance project.

we're scaling down, becoming mobile, while continuing development of very critical energy research.

more than ever, we need your support!

please consider buying a dvd set or donating.

~

in addition, 'listen' cds are now on sale!

for a signed copy, please donate $20 or more.

much love to all! ^_^

development of the third tryad album is well underway...

it's a great, free, open source program that can connect to almost any im account.

my msn contact is 'vavrek@vavrek.com'.

feel free to chat with me sometime. :)

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.26 :: monday :: 6:05pm :: play :: watch :: develop

aside from my laptop hard drive crashing, things here are going really well...

been having wild fun with the resonance project peeps, playing in the oceans, singing acoustic, and enjoying great food.

will hopefully have a new hard drive soon and resume recording.

good thing eye backed everything up right before the drive died.

another piece of hardware bites the dust!

so be it.

make multiple copies of your valuable data!

do it now! do it regularly!

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.10 :: saturday :: 9:41pm :: create :: transcend :: evolve

wonderful day here!

enjoyed a good amount of ocean swimming and sunbathing.

burned the bottoms of my feet while running barefoot on top of some very hot asphalt and pele.

came home and worked with emma on this demo.

we've been getting along well.

finding our friendship.

take time to relax.

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.09 :: friday :: 10:19pm :: live :: love :: grow

spent some nice alone time at the beach today.

floating

in crystal blue

under a radiant sun

heals all ....

emma is doing better.

we just shared a decent conversation.

eye am

feeling

f r e e ~

the greatest school on earth . . .

is inside your heart.

:: r e p l y _

2008.05.02 :: friday :: 10:49am :: awaken :: connect :: dream

feels like things are coming together.

a lot of hard work is beginning to manifest results.

in this mixed up, crazy world, it takes so much effort to create clarity.

even to master one's own habits is such a difficult undertaking.

collective global transformation begins here and now . . .

with you and me.

what we perceive with our senses is merely the smallest slice of reality.

so much more is happening....

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.23 :: wednesday :: 9:01pm :: inhale :: release :: complete

had a nice calm day today.

took a solo trip to the shore, swam in the sunny blue, and rested in white sand.

emma and eye are starting to get along again.

we're both taking better care of ourselves.

sometimes in life . . . .

it's really helps to wipe the slate clean.

identify basic needs.

be prepared.

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.22 :: tuesday :: 7:45pm :: endure :: allow :: transform

emma and eye are working through a lot right now.

have declared myself single.

there's just been too much struggle lately.

it's time for change.

it's time for healing...

~ midnight oil :: sometimes

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.20 :: sunday :: 10:23pm :: release :: rest :: enjoy

love and gratitude

take me now

show this world

beautiful sound

share your ways

sing all praise

give our hearts

ground to start

~

if we can keep our immediate surroundings clean, clear, and well structured . . .

we can achieve amazing things.

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.13 :: sunday :: 5:03pm :: relax :: sing :: smile

finally breaking thr o o o o ... :)

emma and eye are working out our differences, nassim and eye are closer than ever, and the skies here are beginning to clear.

am blasting diesel and dust right now, which feels quite appropriate.

* sigh *

yes friends ...

everything changes.

:)

to gain peace, we must surrender.

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.12 :: saturday :: 1:21pm :: breathe :: accept :: sustain

been going absolutely crazy lately.

am not getting along well with emma, just had a big verbal blowout with nassim (which we have since resolved), and the volcano here in hawaii that we're living on just erupted !!

the sky is filled with grey ash, which is causing lots of rain.

all of this, combined with our friend getting into an accident recently...

feels so overwhelming...

am currently fighting off feelings of depression, finding ways to accept my present situation and move forward.

you know...

sometimes . . .

things just go -

B O O M !

cry, cry, cry.....

:: r e p l y _

2008.04.06 :: sunday :: 9:10pm :: hang on :: focus :: give

a close friend of ours was just hit while riding a motorcycle.

he's at home with us now and we're helping him heal.

moments like these always illuminate what a gift life is.

little problems

evaporate

into the love light

of death

if you ride one, be sure to wear a strong helmet!.

on another note, check out the solar and heliospheric observatory homepage.

neat stuff, to watch our sun's weather...

:: r e p l y _

2008.02.19 :: tuesday :: 9:28pm :: breathe :: imagine :: feel

working really hard lately with the resonance project.

been singing a lot too, quite a few amazing gatherings these days.

am sharing lots of time with beautifully inspired souls.

looking forward to grounding a bit more, getting in a position to record some new tracks.

am so totally blessed and grateful for our current situation.

much love to us all.

vlc is free, open source, and able to run on practically any operating system.

often, when other video players refuse to handle a particular format, vlc will succeed.

it rocks.

:: r e p l y _

2008.02.03 :: sunday :: 2:02pm :: connect :: achieve :: focus

recently redesigned the resonance project website.

working constantly lately, setting up wireless points, managing networks, experimenting with state of the art technology.

life is good. my work is addictive fun. this place is beautiful and amazing.

doing extremely well...

wireless greetings from this d O M e .

• the linux documentation project :: many many vital infos


• speakeasy speed test :: great site for testing the speed of your net connection


• distrowatch.com :: useful for locating the most popular and fresh gnu/linux distros


• afterdawn.com :: brilliant hacker forum

:: r e p l y _

2008.01.08 :: wednesday :: 10:51pm :: shine :: flourish :: appreciate

just experienced my second day working for the resonance project.

this is by far the best job eye have ever had, working with some of the most amazing people eye have ever met, doing the most advanced and interesting things imaginable.

simply too much to explain right now...

eye am in total bliss!

on a more sad note, the young girls that we were looking at adopting have been returned to their mother, at her request.

this has been especially difficult for emma, who bonded quite strongly with them.

we're both rapidly moving on, taking ourselves to a new level of being.

all in all, everything is going extremely well for us right now.

we've found our sangha, our tribe, and in this process, our spirit.

in addition, the second tryad album has just hit number one in popularity on jamendo!

what an absolute blessing...

it's the only way to evolve.

:: r e p l y _

2008.01.02 :: wednesday :: 10:25pm :: celebrate :: connect :: l o v e !

wonderful news!

first of all, my family has come through with flying colors, supporting us fully at this critical moment.

thanks to dad, mom, and grandmom, we now have a home!

we love and thank you so much!!!

second, eye have just been hired as a network administrator for the resonance project!

this is a dream come true, to use my technical skills to support innovative scientists working with fundamental physics.

wow.

a very happy and illuminating 2 0 0 8 to all!

:: r e p l y _

2007.12.30 :: sunday :: 12:07pm :: enjoy :: hope :: ask

we have just found a beautiful rental home here in hawaii!

the girls really love this place and desperately need more stability.

if you can, please help us!

just been hired by an inspiring spirit, an owner of a local landscaping business.

computer jobs are in high demand on this island.

just a matter of time, and we will be settled, on our feet, then flying!

recording equipment is being sent (thanks mom!!!), so vocal recording of the new tryad album will begin again soon.

for this album, we have landed a talented producer from france, realaze!

very exciting!

it's the best frying oil (beyond even olive oil), is great raw, and works wonderfully on skin and hair.

coconut oil is also incredible for massage.

get some and enjoy!

:: r e p l y _

2007.12.25 :: tuesday :: 12:55pm :: guard :: provide :: give

happy holy (helios == sun) days!

F R O G L A N D ! has just been updated with chapter 02!

this eye land of hawaii is quite enjoyable overall.

friends abound lately.

we're helping eachother along this way.

girls are making pies today. :)

"Much Love and Light to All!"

-- The Frogs

makes life more fun.

:: r e p l y _

2007.12.12 :: wednesday :: 10:31pm :: embrace :: accept :: visualize

been an insane, wonderful, horrible, beautiful few weeks.

first, ema and eye have just assumed guardianship of two young girls, aged three and six!

what an incredible gift and responsibility!

suddenly, we're a family, and eye am a father!

taking in these girls instantly created controversy with our former position, so we were forced to leave. been hard on every level, physically, emotionally, and financially...

at this time, we need your support more than ever.

please donate!

of course, we know we're doing the right thing. :)

actually, these children have chosen us.

you know, hawaii is a rugged, wild place to live. feels like we're just getting the hang of things.

harvested some wild bananas and citrus today. when life hands you lemons, make lemonade with raw honey! ^_^

in other news...

jamendo was just recently mentioned in newsweek by professor lawrence lessig, a great moment for all!

seems that the 'mainstream media' is looking more and more our way...

excitment abounds.

my new book, frogland, is coming along quite well.

we've just met some wonderful new friends, a kind and spirited family.

ema and eye are dreaming of travelling europe.

anyone fancy a visit?

we will bring my guitar! :)

someday, if we treat them well, they will care for us in return.

:: r e p l y _

2007.11.21 :: wednesday :: 9:39pm :: w o w :: thanks :: giving

f r o g l a n d !

:: r e p l y _

2007.11.10 :: saturday :: 6:59pm :: ascend :: achieve :: work

the rain!

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 004

featured music ::

rest well.

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.27 :: saturday :: 7:56pm :: rest :: rise :: settle in

got my first coconut tree climbing lesson today.

been sleeping a lot this weekend, recovering from the consumption of a bunch of gloriously potent ganga food that was gifted to me.

had a hard time walking yesterday . . . just a touch too much, eh? ^_^

coconut oil is working pretty well in keeping mosquitos off my skin.

sprouted coconuts are the ones that contain the oil.

will have to find more soon.

we can do anything we want, provided that we work within the balance of our tolerance.

sometimes pushing the limits is useful.

many times not. :)

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.24 :: wednesday :: 6:36pm :: inhale :: focus :: e x p o s e

aloha from a dark, wet jungle filled with charmingly chirping frogs.

check out where eye am . . .

so many experiences are transpiring, each as beautiful as the most perfect poem, touching moments of life and joy.

fact is, we have truly found a paradise.

there's simply too much to describe.

we're regaining broadcasting ability and will be able to begin sharing with everyone in growing abundance.

life can be simply wonderful

heaven is indeed found on earth.

all the time.

hugs make the best greetings.

go for it. :)

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.16 :: tuesday :: 12:30pm :: deepen :: grow :: o p e n

yesterday, eye caught two wild ocean fish using a fishing pole made from the center of a large dry palm leaf. ate some fish raw, then cooked the rest using a small rocket stove.

this morning, woke up at dawn, meditated, stretched out on the beach, then got fairly scraped up while climbing a coconut tree for a cleansing drink of coconut water mixed with fresh lime juice from foreged local limes.

you know...

put the lime in the coconut!

just read in my mini sas survival guide that it's easier to climb coconut trees, or any narrow tree, if you tie a strip of cloth between your feet to grip the trunk as you ascend. will have to give this a shot soon. have got a nice stash of coconuts now to last me awhile.

after over two wonderful weeks of solid beach camping, we're back in 'civilization' for a bit, staying with various friends. tonight it's a lovely tropical home filled with buddhas and fine art.

looking forward to more vocal recording soon. will need to have our equipment sent from the mainland. might try a demo or two with my portable headset mic.

daniel laufer has been whipping up some amazing music for us to work with.

which path we choose is largely our decision.

we may not control the waves, but we can sure learn to surf.

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.11 :: thursday :: 9:53pm :: journey :: explore :: p l u g i n

so far, we have been able to personally harvest and enjoy the following local foods ::

bananas, avocados, papayas, wild ocean fish, macadamia nuts, dates, limes, coconuts, guavas, and star fruits...

the local farmer's markets supply even a wider variety of wonderful foods, such as mangos, cucumbers, carrots, greens, rambutans, and dragon fruits, all locally grown.

would be very hard to starve in hawaii.

still eating primarily raw food.

never felt better.

swimming is quite an excellent, full-body, low-impact exercise.

avoid swimming in chlorinated or polluted water.

clean oceans and lakes are splendid places to swim.

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.06 :: saturday :: 11:35am :: arise :: meditate :: f l o a t

this morning, eye woke early, meditated on the beach, and noticed fins out in the ocean distance.

swam out and spent indescribable time swimming with a large pod of dozens of dolphins.

feeling deeply touched by these beautiful and friendly beings.

an experience of a lifetime....

:: r e p l y _

2007.10.05 :: friday :: 4:30pm :: swim :: collect :: m a n i f e s t

hawaii is stunning.

eye have never lived in a more remote location in my life.

after a couple of rainy gloomy days on the east side of the island, eye have plunged into the full glory of ocean beauty and warm sun in the west.

wow.

been camping on an awesome beach, swimming, snorkeling, viewing some of the most amazing fish, and singing around a campfire.

tune in.

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.28 :: friday :: 8:37pm :: adventure :: trust :: enjoy

greetings from the hawaii islands!

wow, this place is so far away . . .

just getting settled. will be hitting the beach soon.

the huge local avocados and bananas are quite a delight.

will be reporting my experiences regularly.

we are dynamic creatures made of change.

flow.

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.26 :: wednesday :: 11:13am :: move :: abandon :: embrace

leaving to hawaii today.

aloha! ^_^

much love to all.

enjoy this moment.

it's all we have...

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.23 :: sunday :: 9:28pm :: see :: release :: soar

friends...

very amazing discoveries for me in the food realm lately...

as you probably know, been thriving for this past month on an entirely raw diet.

many days, have been eating little more than some raw leafy greens and a couple fruits.

what's stunning is how well eye feel on this very simple diet.

so much energy, vitality on every level...

been lifting weights, doing yoga, kung fu forms, actually been much more physically active than ever.

here are some conclusions ::

we can live for very long periods of time, perhaps indefinitely, on a very simple diet of raw leafy greens, fruits, vegetables, and soaked / sprouted seeds and nuts.

as mentioned earlier, this food is extremely detoxing. my first couple days were intense, along with a couple weeks of mucus in the stools, a shrinking and trimming of the gut, and an actual reversal of the aging process.

shockingly, am looking younger.

wild greens and fruits are found everywhere!

dandelion, plantain, clover, lamb's quarters, and a spectrum of wild greens abound.

during any food shortage, any wild edible greens can give you nutrients to survive.

it's even perhaps possible to live on blades of grass. haven't actually tried this yet... soon. :)

cooking is hardly necessary, even destructive to the value of the food.

as mentioned in an earlier food post, this was one of my last 'uncharted dietary territories'.

a tremendous success!

in a nutshell, this is basically a primate diet, much like our closest animal relative.

join me and the rest of the animal kingdom!

how is it that horses, cows, bulls, deer, moose, and a number of other large mammals get so healthy on diet of mostly raw greens?

think about it.

we're not all that different....

yes friends, we did indeed evolve from animals.

adam and eve ate green plants. :)

be free.

adventure!

:: r e p l y _

2007.09.11 :: tuesday :: 3:47pm :: thrive :: create :: evolve

we are technology . . .

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 003

featured music ::

now is the only time.

breathe.

look.

:: r e p l y _

2007.09:02 :: sunday :: 12:43pm :: love :: live :: share

for the last week or so, my wife and eye have been eating completely raw foods, totally vegan.

for me, this has been one of my last 'uncharted territories' of dietary modification.

must say that the results so far have been totally amazing.

after a couple days of uncomfortable detox, including mild headaches, restlessness during sleep, and slight skin breakouts, my energy has just multiplied tenfold!

waking up feeling absolutely great these days, feeling an abundance of energy, even right after eating.

my flexibility is increasing, my memory retention is advancing, my sex drive is 'on the rise' (lol), my meditations are deeper, and my relationship with everyone is improving...

we're really on to something here and planning on continuing with this practice. the initial results are stunning. will be interesting to see how things go over the long run.

through this process, we've begun connecting with lots of people who are committed to this practice. their health, vitality, and commitment is speaking volumes...

as we collect more experience, we will share all of our discoveries with everyone.

eat lots of raw greens, either blended with fruit as a 'green smoothie' or chopped up into a olive oil / celtic sea salt / raw vegetable mix. we've been using primarily kale and collards. any leafy greens will do the trick!

eat avocados!

salads!

get some LIFE into your diet.

it will clean you out . . .

then it will bring YOU to life.

:: r e p l y _

2007.08.11 :: saturday :: 4:55am :: sharpen :: activate :: lead

life can be a struggle . . .

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 002

featured music ::

contact people you haven't spoken with for a long time.

speak bold truths.

have the courage to be totally real.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.13 :: friday :: 7:11pm :: clean :: reveal :: do

we are light.

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 001

featured music ::

do it right then, or as soon as possible.

that way, once it's done, you won't have to think about it any longer.

saves brain cycles and space.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.06 :: friday :: 7:50pm :: clear :: focus :: transmit

just recorded my first vavmind audio journal entry ::

(mp3 | ogg)))  vavmind 000

featured music ::

project divinity ~ divinity

enjoy.

would love to hear what you think.

all you need is to do is switch the mistaken part with the correct part like this ::

bash$ ^mistake^correction

these carets (^) tell the shell to use the previous command and replace the first entry with the second.

very cool, quick, and simple.

this ability is known as 'history substitution'.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.04 :: wednesday :: 7:46pm :: shelter :: rest :: tune in

this week, we have been experiencing heavy chemtrail spraying here in arizona.

it's maddening. something must be done about it. been staying inside as much as possible.

in better news, eye finally (fully) fixed my laptop last night!

tore it completely apart and found a small metal piece lodged into the secondary cooling fan.

the jammed fan was causing my whole system to slow down.

very happy to have everything finally working again.

expect more media soon.

on a separate surface, one by one, arrange all of the removed pieces in relation to each other, mimicking their original position.

sometimes it takes a couple of these maps (one for each side).

the most challenging aspect of repairing something complicated is putting it back together after disassembly.

a map makes this easy.

:: r e p l y _

2007.07.02 :: monday :: 7:35pm :: maintain :: move :: develop

my laptop is still acting up. could really use a new one. been hard to keep going with everything online.

can't afford a new one right now, so we must make do with what we have.

sorry if any emails have been missed.

emma and eye have setup space for recording, which we're planning to attempt over the next two weeks.

after that, we're going to visit my family on the east coast. will be great to see everyone again.

my grandparents have been in and out of the hospital lately, so we want to spend some time with them.

wrote a new song the other day, called 'grateful'. here are the lyrics ::

call me grateful
for all of life
and today
eye see this light

minds so hateful
scream and cry
that's no way
to feel alive

can you listen
to the thankful part inside
there must be something
that gives meaning to your life

~

actually, it's a song to myself.

it can only be lived.

:: c a l l m e g r a t e f u l_

2007.06.29 :: friday :: 8:59pm :: integrate :: perform :: evolve

lots has happened since my last entry.

first of all, emma and eye have been getting along quite well, fully settling back into our marriage. feels good to have our relationship back, in a more mature form.

early tomorrow we will be singing an acoustic set together at the local farmers market.

was offline for a long time recently!

my laptop was giving having lots of difficulty, running extremely slow.

after lots of troubleshooting, discovered that a clogged heatsink, combined with intense desert heat, caused the bios to become corrupted. my cpu frequency was thrown off along with the cooling controls.

things are starting to work better after running a bootable cd flash bios reinstall, along with an badly needed internal cleaning.

on another note, eye was recently hired by a new local japanese restaurant as a server / cook!

been enjoying working there.

yes, life is rolling right along.

still looking forward to more creative recording time...

hopefully soon.

one measure of a town is the quality of its library.

don't neglect yours!

:: h a i l _

2007.06.11 :: monday :: 9:30pm :: intensify :: stand up :: speak out

haven't posted in this journal for ages!

been getting along fairly well, mostly busy sorting out an ongoing series of relationship dramas (sigh). things are calming down now . . .

feeling able to focus on some other creative things again.

the third tryad album is coming together well. will take a bunch more work until it's complete, yet the overall concept is emerging into view. enjoying the vision highly.

this will be an intense album (far more than the last ones), filled with sound effects, lots of electronic noises, and sarcastic role playing. if you've been paying attention to the current demos, you've been getting a taste. looks like eye will be responsible for producing this one.

just downloaded and burned a copy of the latest ubuntu gnu/linux version. about to overhaul my machine. really needs it.

our new spoken-word audio show will be launching soon.

emma is on a trip, so eye might start without her.

we shall see...

these are known as 'chemtrails' and are part of huge undercover government operations to alter our atmosphere.

information on this issue can be difficult to find.

just got a documentary recently titled aerosol crimes detailing the facts in depth. it's free to be shared and copied, so if you want a copy, donate for shipping and eye will send you one.

drink filtered / distilled water, eat organic foods, seaweed, raw garlic, and other detoxifying agents.

friends, there's a war on for our health.

:: s t a n d u p _

2007.05.23 :: wednesday :: 12:32am :: rest :: prepare :: absorb

caretaking a house lately.

watched cable tv tonight for the very first time in ages.

what a bunch of strange, superficial, violent, pseudo-sexual stuff.

c-span is the only thing eye could really handle watching for long, other than a cool documentary called forest for the trees.

as far as media goes, this net is my absolute savior.

way more choice. way more honest.

at least it's two-way.

check out some of the following ::

common dreams :: democracy now :: newsreal :: reddit :: therawstory :: guerrillanews :: slashdot :: free speech radio :: digg :: black listed news :: antiwar :: buzzflash :: eurekalert

* w a r n i n g *

judging from experience, too much of this stuff can really hurt the brain.

it's better to make our own news anyway . . .

:: w r i t e m e _

2007.05.20 :: sunday :: 11:29am :: heal :: maintain :: hang on

what an intense week.

once settled here, eye learned that emma was still in the middle of another relationship.

this was unknown to me and this week was a crazy emotional rollercoaster of the three of us working to sort things out.

the situation seems to have finally resolved, with emma and eye planning on selling the van and using the money to move together to hawaii.

feeling a little sad and shaken by it all, yet it looks like everything is going to work out in the long run.

really been quite a stretch of relationship chaos, which eye thought was coming to and end with my arrival here.

yet another indication of the dangers of expectations, as well as a clear sign of cultural transformations happening all around.

have a number of times lately wanted to give up and become a simple monk.

in other news, a new tryad store has spawned that handles international shipping. been getting a number of requests for this.

planning on recording again soon.

signed cds will be shipping this week.

blessings.

particularly recommended are the speeches by jello biafra and richard stallman.

valuable listening.

:: c o n f i d e _

2007.05.10 :: thursday :: 2:03pm :: arrive :: connect :: e n j o y

made it to arizona!

yosemite was astounding . . .

crossing the mojave desert was quite difficult. have never been through such a vast, vacant, burning hot place before. happy there was a large bottle of water with me.

emma and eye are really enjoying being back together now.

really glad that we made this decision.

we have both learned and grown so much over our time apart.

feeling so much appreciation for everything, this life, and my wife.

thank you all.

love everyone so much.

c h a n g e !

there are plenty of ways to shake things up, including the following ::

move, make new friends, reconnect with old friends, get a haircut, dress differently, cook unusual foods, dance, go on walks, exercise, start new hobbies, change habits, kill a television, speak your truth, read books, spend time with children, invent something, learn, travel, write letters, volunteer for a cause, get involved with your local community, start a business, listen to new music, meditate, plant a garden and watch it grow, get a new pet, keep a journal . . . :)

:: h e l l o !

2007.05.06 :: sunday :: 12:21pm :: launch :: let go :: f l y

great thanks to professor lawrence lessig, steven booth, hanani, and asclepius daughter for their most generous donations!

we are so touched, relieved, and extremely thankful . . .

you have enabled us to unite, create, and continue sharing with this world.

signed cds will be sent to you very soon.

leaving today for arizona.

gratitude, gratitude, gratitude . . .

^ _ ^

check out this low energy lifestyle slideshow.

cuba was struck with an imposed 'peak oil' in the 1990s and survived quite well.

serves as an impressive example for us all.

permaculture can solve practically all global problems.

( t r a n s m i t )))

2007.05.04 :: friday :: 2:13pm :: wait :: endure :: appeal

emma and eye want to reunite soon to develop the third tryad album!

we need your help to make this happen...

anyone who donates $20 or more will receive a signed copy of our 'listen' cd!

thank you all so much for your ongoing support.

we love you dearly.

dreams tell us much about ourselves.

if everyone were to slow down and relax more, this world would be a better place for it.

simple things matter most.

:: c o m m u n i c a t e _

2007.04.28 :: saturday :: 9:25pm :: perfect :: complete :: breathe

eye want

this world to be a peaceful place

plants, humans, and animals to bloom.

eye want

there to be lots of love between us

for everyone to be cared for.

eye want

food growing everywhere

poetry being read to the moon and stars.

eye want

conversations around fires

naked bathing in sunlit oceans.

eye want

for each of us to love ourselves

just as we are.

use and replace as you go.

distillation is one of the best forms of water purification.

this can also be done via the sun or by boiling.

the next weblife.org video episode will show everyone how to do this.

anyone want to donate or buy a rocket stove to help make a new video happen?

needing a bit more trip money to reunite my wife.

she handles the cameras. :)

:: t e l l m e ::

2007.04.25 :: wednesday :: 8:19pm :: vanish :: focus :: engage

our female guinea pig just gave birth to two beautiful healthy babies!

just read how guinea pigs are raised and eaten, in various places around the world, and sometimes by permaculture teachers.

interesting.

been making tons of rocket stoves.

probably have around 30 of them in stock now.

tryad.org just got an interface-lift.

you like? :)

fact is, rent sucks.

why does shelter cost us all so much?

natives never have this problem.

:: b e a m _

2007.04.20 :: friday :: 7:02pm :: recreate :: investigate :: question

beautiful day here today.

nice walk in the woods.

just delivered two rocket stoves.

van is running again. :)

emma and eye will be reunited soon.

much love to us all.

~

breaking the silence :: the third stage :: loose change :: road to guantanamo ::
the pharmacratic inquisition

great & powerful stuff.

:: t u n e i n _

2007.04.18 :: wednesday :: 1:30am :: m a r r i a g e

eye married a couple today (yesterday)!

like, was a 'minister' (moon star).

was a pagan wedding.

sooooOOOOOO beautiful.

played with children
among rocks
trees
and a beautiful
flowing river

eye sang

to the trees

and played guitar

for every

o n e

especially

the

s u n

.

peace and healing

to you virginia

~

2007.04.18 :: tuesday :: 11:59pm :: impeach :: impeach :: impeach

god damn this holy war
fucking oil we're fighting for

will jesus save your souls
killers for world control

hypocrites and terror talk
9 1 1 was an inside job

just some sick master plan
dying in blood stained sand

how dare you threaten us
you think that you're so tough

all will be revealed today

you have real hell to pay

lies and crimes beyond belief

faithful flock is losing sheep

behive live with swarming bees

better pray get on your knees

dictators get a fucking clue

we are all through with you

will we ever comprehend
such greed
inside these men

darkness only turns to light

death only turns to life

war only turns to peace

impeach

impeach

2007.04.13 :: friday :: 11:07am :: manifest :: do :: awaken

woke up early, went on a walk in the woods, meditated next to flowing water, found a bunch more dried mugwort for firestarting, came home, and drank a large jar of local spring water mixed with fresh lemon juice.

haven't smoked cannabis for a while and am feeling much better as a result. enjoying more vivid and memorable dreams, a clearer mind, and waking up earlier. have more energy overall.

about to take a cold shower, do some naked naked sunbathing, and make a town trip to send out some packages via the post office.

special thanks to hanani from england and justin from canada for your generous support!

much love to you both.

rocket stoves and signed copies of the new tryad cd are on the way.

have decided to get back together with my wife. we have been talking a lot by phone lately.

both have been through a lot of changes since our separation and we've decided to give our relationship another try.

still need to fix my van to travel to her.

will be working on that.

sustainability is our greatest imperative, our critical global challenge.

we each need to connect deeply with our own mental clarity, clean air, pure water, and healthy food.

we must invite plants and animals into our lives.

bees are dying in vast amounts, probably due to genetically modified crops which contain pesticides in their pollen.

if all the bees die, we are soon to follow, as our food crops will not be able to reproduce.

the time for apathy and ignorance is over.

:: r e s p o n d _

2007.04.09 :: monday :: 4:57pm :: release :: exist :: be

anyone else want a signed copy of the new tryad cd?

donate $10 or more and you will be sent one.

those who donated previously will be getting their copy soon.

just arrived from the manufacturer...

much love to all!

enjoyable show. :)

newsreal is kicking!!

also, hackermedia.org is back online.

good stuff!

:: g e e k o u t ::

2007.04.07 :: saturday :: 11:39pm :: open :: imagine :: initiate

transported soil yesterday from the chicken coop into the garden, got a bunch of sawdust from the local sawmill for use in humanure composting, rode a bike into town and held my second 'love riot' (standing in peak downtown traffic with a large sign that says 'i love you').

got the usual friendly, positive, uplifting responses. :)

today was spent doing dishes, cleaning the house, taking care of guinea pigs, and recording this and this.

emma just invited me to spend time on her new homesteading spot in arizona.

there are horses, a garden, and wilderness there.

sounds appealing.

when food scraps are placed in their area, they will eat what they can, tearing up and burying the rest, creating a rich soil for gardening.

chicken poop is also one of the best garden fertilizers found on this planet.

:: r e l a t e ?

2007.04.05 :: tuesday :: 8:16pm :: heal :: embrace :: allow

went on a nice walk in the woods today after building some rocket stove parts.

ate some wild st john's wort and indian lettuce.

found a bunch more mugwort, including a ton of last years dry leaves for fire making.

also discovered a bunch of patches of local native sage.

a special treat!

time for some bundle making.

would love to send everyone some. :)

came home, and recorded this.

eyeloveyou.

eyeloveusall_

with a little sunlight and the proper tinder, you can light a fire quite easily.

sometimes there's just no need for sulfur or butane.

:: p o n d e r . . .

2007.04.03 :: tuesday :: 1:51pm :: wait :: simplify :: discover

last night eye recorded a new demo, watched the great global warming swindle, slept, woke up, used the bucket, went for a long walk and meditation in the woods, found a discrete spot to enjoy some naked sunbathing, did some situps and pushups, picked some indian lettuce for the guinea pigs, some dandelion leaves for me, ate these along with some baby manzanita berries and fresh pine shoots, one egg from the chickens in the backyard (yolk raw, whites fried in a cast iron skillet with local raw organic butter and sea salt), smoked some recently dried mugwort.

100% local food this morning (except for the sea salt)!

just got a generous donation from hanani!

thank you so much!

been really needing support...

you'll be getting a special 'vav package' from me soon.

just found out that eye will be going camping for a couple of days.

right on. :)

constantly.

:: i n q u i r e ~

2007.03.31 :: saturday :: 12:13am :: awake :: embrace :: attain.

today eye woke up at dawn, peed in a bucket, meditated with an eye pillow, fed the guinea pigs and chickens who provided three eggs, went on a long walk in the forest which ended up at the local sawmill where eye picked up some free cedar bark to be included as fire making tinder in rocket stove kits, cleaned a bunch of tin cans, ate some soaked and soft cooked amaranth with sesame seeds and maple syrup, did some pushups and situps, rode my bike to the natural food store and bought some groceries.

came home and recorded this.

this is the first song in a planned series of acoustic recordings.

my third solo album will simply be me singing with a guitar.

been looking forward to this.

might be moving to mexico sometime soon. :)

patience prevails.

quite often the slow turtle wins the race.

endure.

focused deliberate effort rewards.

:: n e w d a y .

2007.03.29 :: thursday :: 4:32pm :: empty :: relax :: continue

since the last post, my van was towed home in exchange for $20 and a rocket stove, chad left for his week long trip, our internet went down overnight, been cooking things like soaked lentils, brown rice, and corn tortillas, have masturbated twice, been shitting in a bucket, took care of a bunch of personal organization, smoked some grass, sang, sang, and sang, rode my bike to town, made some rocket stove deliveries, gave one away to a lovely cashier, bought some organic apples, raw cheese, garlic, two heads of lettuce, and one onion, lemon, pear, banana, and avocado.

just received another extremely generous donation from asclepius' daughter.

infinite gratitude and love to you my dear friend!

getting systems ready for more recording.

been enjoying my guitar so much lately.

just got invited to a party tomorrow night.

sweet. :)

love is the act of creation itself.

everything is born of love.

love is fundamental truth.

:: s i n g )))

2007.03.27 :: tuesday :: 5:58pm :: achieve :: organize :: overcome

just shipped out my first three rocket stoves!

after visiting the post office, was about to deliver more stoves to local outlets when my van broke down in the middle of traffic!

two very kind local police used their car to push it over to the side of the road.

enjoyed a nice walk home from downtown.

luckily my one friend owns a tow truck, while my other friend is a mechanic.

good to have friends.

communication is our life blood.

when we share our experiences, ideas, understandings with each other, we magnify our collective wealth in this world.

we are truly all one family.

:: p r o j e c t >

2007.03.26 :: monday :: 9:31am :: reflect :: question :: challenge

let me start by saying that eye am a big advocate of open relationships.

in many ways, eye feel that open relationships represent our truest nature.

we all have the capacity (and sometimes the total desire) to love more than one person at once. anyone with an open heart and mind knows this is true.

this being said, eye also feel that honesty is absolutely vital. if you have feelings towards, or are sharing intimacy with multiple people, everyone involved should know about it. if everyone agrees, it can actually work!

for some reason, eye keep attracting women who are practicing open relationships without keeping their partners informed.

this is deceptive, misleading, dangerous, and opens the potential for much chaos and suffering.

come on girls . . .

get real.

in an emergency self defence situation, this could be quite valuable, while being less harmful than unleashing wing chun kung fu on someone.

as a side note, there are some interesting cell phone stun guns on the market.

would suck to forget and try and answer one, eh? :)

:: z a p p !

2007.03.25 :: sunday :: 4:46pm :: c l a r i f y :: indicate :: r e v e a l

thanks mom for buying a rocket stove!

ok folks . . .

rather than going on about being lonely, it's time to be a bit more positive and proactive. :)

sound good?

e y e a m s i n g l e .

eye have been recently tested and cleared of any sexually transmitted disease.

would love to love someone.

in person.

simple and direct, huh? :)

:: h e l l o ?

2007.03.25 :: sunday :: 8:40am :: clarify :: intend :: create

my first online rocket stove sale just came in!

anyone else want one?

an inexpensive, vital alternative technology.

last night, after telling naomi that eye am feeling lonely, she replied ::

'loneliness is the human condition though..... embrace it.'

here's my response ::

'actually, loneliness is a very unusual condition for me.

most of my life has been spent in groups, or involved in close relationships.

even in meditation.

can't agree that loneliness is 'the human condition'.

it's a common feature of the 'modern condition', which coincides with every other destructive element of this society.

traditional cultures always contained frequent and constant human contact.

we all crave it. it's our nature.

being isolated like caged animals into separate compartments is something very new and unusual.

my life's work is to transform and reverse this trend.

won't last long anyway.

it's our 'modern society' that's disposable, not ancient intuition.

just a matter of time... :)'

thoughts anyone?

will be including some free with every rocket stove sold.

:: c o n n e c t _

2007.03.24 :: saturday :: 10:29am :: move :: love :: f l o w

last night was my first aikido class in a long time.

was so wonderful. missed it so much.

went out to an indian restaurant for tea afterward with a fun new friend.

enjoyed some great discussion about out of body experiences and lucid dreaming.

haven't talked about such things in a while, let alone had such things happen lately.

should get back on that track.

it's easy.

just eat less, eliminate intoxicants and increase meditation.

then, after a while, amazing things happen...

don't look to others for what you should do or who you should be,

see with your own eyes, hear with your own ears, and think with your own mind.

diversity is strength.

:: s h o w e r m e

2007.03.21 :: wednesday :: 4:17pm :: r i s e ! :: achieve :: f r e e d o m

woke up before dawn, meditated, built three rocket stoves, got the local elite mountaineering shop to sell them on their shelves (!), picked up naomi and hiked to the river where eye swam, sunbathed naked on the rocks, and practiced martial arts.

got home, smoked a bit of grass, and decided to write this journal posting. :)

tonight, planning on building more rocket stoves, taking care of some web design, cooking, and hanging out on myspace.

will certainly do some singing...

heck, will do some right now.

much love to all !!!

expanded blood vessels put pressure on surrounding tissues and cause pain, thus, a headache.

this is usually caused by expansive foods such as sugar, alcohol, pharmaceutical drugs, or via petrochemical exposure.

to balance, shrink the blood vessels by taking in contractive elements, such as sea salts, seaweeds (which also pull heavy metals from the body), or animal based foods such as eggs, fish, or meat.

all of these are known as having a yang effect.

my favorite headache remedy is umeboshi, a salty, pickled japanese plum.

best medicine eye know.

:: a u m

2007.03.20 :: tuesday :: 8:55pm :: sleep :: work :: breathe

after some late night, slightly kinky chatting with a woman in new york, eye enjoyed a lengthy masturbation in bed.

slept deeply, just like a baby, right up until the afternoon of this cloudy grey, rainy day.

woke up, ate some local free-range organic eggs, and jumped into a bunch of web design for a client.

been working online most of the day, enjoying various types of tea, smoking a bit of herb, and listening to a wide spectrum of music.

mistook recent space from naomi as something of significance.

just missing her.

f i n d

f i s h !

:: a f i s h y f i s h y f i s h !

2007.03.19 :: monday :: 6:58pm :: focus :: prepare :: clean

the first rocket stoves went on the shelf for sale today!

delivered my first invoice and was immediately handed a check. :)

our server fees are covered!

after a long nap, been preparing a large stock of tin cans for production.

nice working from home now, owning my own small business, choosing my own hours.

doing something simple and fun.

yet revolutionary.

as much as possible, practice letting things go.

when experiencing judgements and uncomfortable feelings, just let them sit.

relax, raise awareness, and wait it out.

everything always eventually changes.

:: r o c k i n '

2007.03.18 :: sunday :: 7:19pm :: s p r o u t ! :: g r o w ! :: e x p l o r e !

spring has sprung!

went on a long mountain bike ride through an old pine forest, smoked some cannabis, and took a wild edible hike.

ate tons of fresh baby indian lettuce (they were here first), chickweed, mugwort, cleavers, and blackberry leaves.

collected a bunch of last years dry mugwort for firestarting.

ended up taking a naked dip in the river, did some yoga on the rocks, and practiced my wing chun kung fu forms.

came home to my inboxes being filled with loving and kind messages from around this planet.

feeling so refreshed right now . . .

life is beauty.

~

get outside whenever you can.

stare deeply into the face of nature.

tiny worlds are everywhere to expore.

:: s p r u n g !

2007.03.17 :: saturday :: 9:26pm :: march :: sing :: float

brought my guitar downtown today, marched, and sang with around 400 people at today's peace rally.

tons of fun. :)

been feeling a bit lonely tonight.

my friends are all off doing other things.

time for bed.

sweet dreams everyone.

be careful about what the mainstream media says.

have known them to lie repeatedly.

people in power often lie to maintain their position.

good to be aware of this.

:: b e d t i m e . . .

2007.03.16 :: friday :: 6:42pm :: arise :: engage :: achieve

woke up before dawn this morning, meditated, then launched right into action.

washed my laundry and hung it out to dry. bought some food and gas. took a trip to the local recycling center and picked up a supply of tin cans for rocket stove making.

all of this was possible do to the kind donations that have recently come in.

will be ordering a batch of 'listen' cds soon, which will be signed and sent to all who are showing their support.

should be able to cover our server costs.

the shop that's going to carry the rocket stoves is paying me outright for them.

don't even have to wait for them to sell.

we have liftoff !

^ _ ^

for personal hygene, eye am a big fan of weleda products.

been using their toothpaste and deodorant for a long time now.

would certainly recommend them.

:: t h o u g h t s ?

2007.03.15 :: thursday :: 11:42pm :: relax :: enjoy :: deepen

just got an extremely generous donation from asclepius' daughter . . .

simply profound. :)

thank you so much !!!

today, to celebrate the creation of my new rocket stove business, eye treated naomi and myself to the movie 'children of men' on the big screen.

should be required viewing for all of western civilization.

after the film, we bought some fresh coconuts and ate them at home.

lit a palm wax candle, burned some sage, and enjoyed massaging eachother with jojoba oil mixed with lavender oil.

ended up making out passionately .

e y e a m i n l o v e

w i t h

e v e r y t h i n g .

honesty takes courage.

courage comes from understanding how temporary everything is.

someday, everything, everyone, eventually passes away.

b e f r e e !

:: a a a a a a h h h .

2007.03.14 :: wednesday :: 4:18pm :: r e j o i c e ! :: celebrate :: express gratitude

just sold my very first rocket stove!

two local outlets have agreed to sell rocket stoves on their shelves!

t o d a y i s a b e a u t i f u l d a y ! ! !

the moment eye brought one in the shop, a sweet woman bought it right on the spot, for thirty-five dollars, while it was being demonstrated to the manager.

have been asked by the shop to mass produce them!

my friends, we are bringing the power of native fire back into the lives of humanity.

using 100% recycled material.

petroleum free.

donations for music have begun pouring in from california, texas, and united kingdom !!!

thank you mounir, joel, and hannah !!! ^ _ ^

you will be receiving autographed copies of tryad's new cd.

m y f r i e n d s, it's time to celebrate !!!

going to use my dishwashing application for rocket stove fuel.

: ) : ) : )

yee haw !!! :)

eye love you !!!

e y e l o v e y o u a l l ! ! !

hooray vav! we celebrate you and feed you tomorrow night!

congrats on the rocket stove sale!

was happy to read that's starting to take off for you.

:: w o o h o o : )

2007.03.13 :: tuesday :: 10:16am :: struggle :: endure :: overcome

desperately trying to find ways to make money.

web design has stalled, rocket stoves have yet to sell, and donations for music have not been coming.

server demands are increasing due to growing popularity.

not sure how to maintain the costs.

submitting an application for a local dishwashing job.

yes, dear friends . . .

eye am officially a starving artist.

focus on what you want in life.

let everything else go.

If you need extra bandwidth/disk space, let me know.

:: g i v e

2007.03.10 :: saturday :: 11:39pm :: prepare :: journey :: relate

wow.

what an intense, amazing day . . .

woke up before dawn, meditated, walked in the woods, exercised, sun bathed, drove to san francisco with naomi, sang 'oh freedom' on stage to the entire free tibet rally, kissed naomi for the first time (!), repeatedly got lost on the return trip due to compelling conversation, brought naomi home, then, to top it all off, ran out of gas just a couple of miles from my house.

enjoyed a splendid walk home, singing, and smiling under beautiful stars.

wow.

what else can one say?

"i am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination.

imagination is more important than knowledge.

knowledge is limited.

imagination encircles the world."

~ albert einstein

:: d e b a t e

2007.03.09 :: friday :: 1:39pm :: awake :: connect :: wonder

just got home from a fun bicycle ride in the woods with a beautiful woman.

she's planning on taking a solo tour of africa this year.

highly inspiring.

old friends from los angeles are arriving tonight.

we're all planning to go to the free tibet rally in san francisco tomorrow.

going to bring my guitar and sing there.

want to join us?

freedom is vital.

so is honesty.

healthy relationships contain both.

:: r e a c t

2007.03.08 :: thursday :: 8:59am :: rise :: breathe :: create

we live in a funny society.

for a number of people, the most basic things are taboo.

three school girls were recently suspended for saying the word 'vagina'.

apparently for some, it's not proper to talk about bodies, sex, shit, food, money, death, or even existence.

yet, all of these topics include our most real, significant, and direct experiences.

are we divorced from ourselves?

liberate yourself.

liberate everyone.

:: w h i s p e r

2007.03.06 :: tuesday :: 7:44pm :: walk :: heal :: d r e a m

went on a really long walk in the forest today.

tonight, eye am staying home, smoking some grass, and singing ruby tuesday. :)

had a long nap.

been doing a bunch of web design for a client.

probably masturbate before bed.

been feeling . . .

hmmm ...

lately. ^_^

time is the most valuable thing.

because it's everything.

:: s q u e e k

2007.03.05 :: monday :: 11:00pm :: sleep :: rest :: contemplate

last night eye went to a club and danced my a